'medium' 23rd/24th April2008

Looking

I’ve been looking at the ways of looking at a space and observing it. I’ve struggled to keep to one particular format. Returned to my obsession with people. the thought of yellow... and red blue and green to cure it, happy thoughts of food and people and drink.   Shapes. My friends say it is a love to hate yellow. I must keep my mysterious facade and not give it away. I’ll be calling the latest bit on the wall. ‘love and wall’. I like shapes and how we relate to them. The shape of a collage I was creating I was reminded of Jim Lambie who I seem to consistantly become drawn to ... the last piece being ‘weird glow’ . Like what he seems to be thinking, I originally wanted the shape to kind of have an amorphous tinge, ready to be whatever the viewer believes, then changed my mind.

 

 

 

 

The time I was asleep I was woken by steph and rosie at my door Wednesday 23^rd april 2008. Can I sort out the photos , they could be fallen to the floor. Steve and me and viv all like the tampon tree suvi made. I sat jennifer’s disposal bag atop the object which found its way into a book of suvi. I had some water in luci’s glass. Lambie people all say that yasmins work is like. Brendan came round looking at the spaces and tells us about how we are all coherent and lift from each other. I know that it is true. It was yesterday then that I heard anything about an opinion on a difference between drawing and painting.  I don’t think i was particularly listening hard or intently as i cannot remember much .. maria said about painting being a kind of fluid action with something. I want water. water wants. we are water.  Michael is to meet a friend in the bar. the bar . the bar subar. sue bar bar am david. i missed. we didn’t have to run faster than time. wolf turbo tardis .

 

 

 

Suvi said it was good she liked the fact that people could be thinking and expecting something huge and grand. people thought i was going to take ;my clothes off . It shocked them that i wasn’t.

 

I’ve been happy all day and no alcohol. talked to claire and a different claire was oxford. She text me as i saw 1213 wetherspoon southgate. It’s hard to explain to people briefly what it is all about. keith wants more discourse as does michael. Brendon says he could see the humour in it. Someone else says that it was brave.. perhpaps marcus said that. It is quite the scary..if you look over there .. people also look over there or was it at you.? the first time that i planned to do it i had to make him decide what time it was.. part of it i think... the love.. him and his work to influence time of mine. I think i did it 4 times.  the first one was when I led anne to my work she was asking if it was a performance.. i told her that i didn’t know what a performance was and that i would be thinking it great if she says that was it.. a technical term? yes she says that is a technical term for it> while it happened i talked to jarreettt and talked about his shoes.>On later inspection he didn’t realise that this was the thing that was the work.  .. that is good. the idea is that people wear and do things that are not always obvious all the time with intention and reason for particular purposes. Perhaps I just wanted to get changed. It was more than that but it  is great to be able to just get changed and then try and construct a silly analogy. my favourite bits were when maria was adament that she put her boyfriend’s dad’s towel (which was red blue and green and arranged beautifully in the shape of my outline that was already on the floor) away and out of sight.. It wasn’t when I found it. . so I drew round it and took a phhotograph. charlie and simon and ashleigh were yellow.

woody allen filme... love and ... is keith talking about love and death. He mentioned the allen person. love and wall for me my title . wall could sound like war . i liked that when i thought of it.