cecily brown


Viv mentioned the name to me yesterday. this blog is not going very well.. I need to do more research. That image reminded me of the work i did, you can see that on my other blog.

Feels like i should be shopping. I want to go and see the exhibitions but i’ve been thinking about it so much. it seems silly a paradox. oxymoron. allalal . I like this song american life. I was tempted to watch donnie darko again. I ought to write about what i need to for my blog. artists. I think just their influence on my life. aaargh. biography.. what is the point in that. Institution.. first. gallery mauger modern . i cant. should i ring them? Modern painters I’ll try and read it all in the library. I find it surreal strange interesting how all the things that read and everything goes into heads and is scary trying to pick. bizarre me and claire (collaborative bollocks) think how there are this these lists that people feel inclined to have to read.  (something that the transient gallery has upheld... not that it's silly..they have curated an exhibition of alist of books that are to be read and ticked off)

 It’s tough getting through all this as . wit . with . me. with. wit. I don’t know> i just don’t . Modern Painting/ers is fun. The contents page and typography and that i know what i’m reading/ in relation to magazine. the language. seems like a simple start to the beginner of art. doesn’t seem like i shuld be knowing much already. lots of adverts that look tempting. that’s how i came across some painters and almost made me go to berlin next week. Aims? to show art and ask questions perhaps. I should ask them and phone. what are your aims . who started it? the same for a galllery steve or paul at mauger. what is this meant to be aboutt. archive.... links  pictures thoughts what was there. I alike a couple of the people represented costa was just like mine of a few years ago. I like a few years ago . I don’t remember doing all the work and paintoing but thinking about it i tended to just do art and try and block out all the writing and just paint. I did that too last year at foundation. It was funny going into a room and finding lots of paper and books that i write and scribble and draw in trying to find electrical goods and adapters in a not success. medium of looking drawing . there is too much history.. describe my own experience.. askothers. drawing with looking. look. to see . not eastenders. I would but there are the guilty books and it.. eastenders is not incidental enough .. so i go for one or two programmes a week torchwood  camp comedy drama. everybody’s looking for something. (madonna bits) If you look for something you will always find something. not always what you were looking. what’s the difference between looking and seeing? Looking is feeling with your body and brain if you wanna play the game. fun house. like memory. relations between everything relationship links. songs have lots of you love in . aaargh. moulin rouge. didnt’ see it all cheesy love songs so much about and it is not anything tangible but it makes sad . 

Now it is 29th MARCH

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Some thought about what it is to look at an artist> what do they do.

write about a publication. I keep changing my mind. one day saturday I bought modern painters i wanted big issue. do they have a sight. I talked to alex chocholko on the internet he said that is what i do.. change my mind. i did in his presence.

Karl said i say or was it me that what i say is what i’m thinking . . not all of it.. in comparison to all most the other people say which generally is not the thing that they are thinking feeling inside. fun sober fun and tea and bed and kirk.

Modern painters ..  is a magazine I introduced to by dave mentioned that we should be reading and buying. I seem to be led... one has to by something so it may as well have been him. read and read last night the seemingly  uncomfortable situations distant images Futoshi Miyagi (Modern painters feb 2008). how it makes me feel? . In another one a matthew collings about the painters of modern life painting painting exhibition at the hayward.. familiar now his writing from the book this is modern art that i used from claire and then again another day from the library. Homosexuality? the photos make me remember the cold kind of transcripts of an empty email series exchange. put into this situation.. blank. uneasy.

I read michaels writing. there is a waiting room at paddington and on thursday i drew it and from it and people there and stains on a wall. stains . and dribbles. I kept that action happening i realised lying with chess pieces below, not below me for i was on the bed but on the floor. arrange the pieces in a collaborative bollock karl as the conversation discussion about us and relations intensify.. as does the closeness of hands and pieces and proximety of positioning tight similar pieces. the ones that are like little penis.

 

horse and groom paint and draw.

Rbg and rbg more.

a days people where rugby drunks ask about my big black dildo.

(it's a carry case for drawings)

some kind of start

7^th march

Publication

 

7^th march

Looking and drawing

 

7^th march

Conor Harrington.

 

Me and rosie and bacon were wandering back from a show and i caught a glimpse of painting through a little window. I took a step back and said ‘can we go in here?’ We did. It was Lazarides Gallery showing conor harrington’s weekend warriors. Instant reaction. use of drawing.. I emailed something to the email address last night.

7th march

gallery.. umm Lazarides. should i visit the one in newcastle too?

7th march

Institution

I would write about the First Great Western as an institution. It is a possibility. The idea here is just to write and look. For me... I think the point of this task is to look and have some kind of engagement. It is nigh on impossible to limit ourselves to 5 'things'. I did some drawings about the logo to start with then I looked at the posters of First Great western. I like this logo. there is a line.. if you read from bottom that takes you away... and this institution can get you beyond a space to the new place you want to get to.. beyond the horizontal element within the logo. I did a rubbing of this thing that's on the back of the seats on the trains. Shape of F to remind you of the name.. First.