something that isn't there

looking and looking and looking doesn't mean that you should find something. It might not be there. 

I was ripping pages gently out of a book the other day and found some institutions. Bank of England could be an interesting one or a radio station. Today I think that looking/seeing would be a wonderful medium to investigate. I think I look kind of differently each day.. quite wonderful how it can be .. either looking with eyes. I like to look with all of the body.. experience.  hmm..the looking.. does it affect the piece of 'art' the world is different if you were not looking at it? Phillip Warnell said something like it possibly could. I would like to look at this more. In the 'performances' that I've done/experienced.. looking .. out in at. implicitly this is an aaar;gh.. is it part of it? what is the history? How have different people looked at the looking? I think just looking at the world is a valid art thing. living. that is it. .looking and enjoying. Ok.. hmm... with a writing about the looking. I need to find out more what others think of all this nonsense. I don't really get that bothered.. it's just that this is a task.. perhaps after doing it I should find some sort of opinion that wasn't there before or was and hiding. I don't know..I don't know if this scares me or not.. having this task that makes one be too aware or not about this world. aaaaargh.....Oh well. I don't want to edit just yet. Let's save all that until a time when someone else perhaps I have some kind of content.

Artist, Institution, Medium, Gallery, Publication

There are these terms. I guess that they are all rather loose in the respect that I am expected to use them in. I have intention to ponder and research (not sure what that involves really) all of these points... hopefully specifying one in particular for each heading. Quite a daunting task I feel. This is us for us so I should find something perhaps that I am interested in. I think this could take too long. Instead a case of a little snippet of chance would be helpful. I'll use a dictionary and my calculator or the time. I'll pick some digits from the time and use that number or numbers to find a page in the dictionary and use a letter or word from that page. Let me try that now.351 is the time .. I'll go with that for now. The first thing that happened when i opened the page.. the word that my eyes and brain took in aaaargh is Eastern Orthodox Church.... a noun.. another name for the Orthodox Church. I don't have a clue how to reference things properly or indeed whether I am allowed to use things that I read in various places. Oh dear. I should perhaps look at that then at some point pretty soon. Anyhow, that was The New Collins Concise English Dictionary page 351 Standard ISBN 0 00 433091-9. 

Hmmm...should  I look again on the same page? I just heard Sigmund Freud in a song that my ears helps my brain to hear... 'Die Another Day' which is a Madonna song. Does this need editing? Hmmm.. a medium of sound and music.. artist or institution could be Orthodox church and/or Sigmund Freud. 

hmmm...not sure at all. I'll try it again one more time before bed.. .. 0400 time

'falsify' hmmm deceit.. a medium, lies? I don't know if I'm taking this seriously enough. I did see

oooh. I just spotted fantasia ..1. any musical composition of a free or improvisatory nature. 

I think the way I would like is to get a job first next week and look from there. For now. Bed